I wasn’t anything enough

Not beautiful enough,

Not caring enough,

Not kind enough,

Not funny enough,

Not fun enough,

Not confident enough,

Not go-getting enough,

Not fluent in Japanese enough,

Not smart enough,

Not strong enough,

Not good enough –

I wasn’t anything enough.

I never am.

But I guess she was,

She was everything enough for you.

 

 

 

Whew, that was depressing. It was originally an impassioned outburst that somehow ended up as a poem. Now that I’ve gotten that off my chest perhaps I can stop wandering around looking like a slapped kipper and cheer up a little. I’ve never published anything quite so raw and emotional before, but, I feel better already, and that is all that really matters to me right now.

Chuuu xoxo

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15 thoughts on “I wasn’t anything enough

  1. Just from looking at your well-written posts, reading them is enough to know you’re “enough” :). I think you have good taste and you are a good writer.

    • Aww, thank you so much for your kind words 🙂 They’ve made me so happy, especially at a time when I do feel like I’m not. Thank you, thank you! *huggles to you* 🙂
      I’m now smiling at my computer screen like a bit of an idiot, and my co-worker sitting across from me is looking at me like I’m mental :p But it’s all good 😀

      • Of course! I have a friend who now lives in Japan to teach English and I always thought he was incredibly brave. I think you are too and your posts are always a delight to read :).

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  3. As someone who has literally had every single one of those thoughts before (besides that whole being fluent in Japanese thing 😉 ) I totally understand the painful place this comes from. The good thing is, that once you allow yourself to do a little wallowing, you ccan come to the place where you realize that it is exactly the opposite. That other person wasn’t enough. They wouldn’t have dated you to begin with if they thought you were so lacking. I have found that the person who is spewing this awful stuff onto you is usually the one who is lacking. Keep your head up girl. He wasn’t your person and he wasn’t enough for you…not the other way around.

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